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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 08:44

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

One cannot live in the past .

Why is my ex still keeping in touch with me even though she dumped me?

Was to survive, this bastard.

We were not on the streets..

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Who then, do I blame.?

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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But, we were locked up after school.

I was 9 years of age.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

We all went to grammer schools

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I will be 64.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But it wasn’t much.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And i lived it daily.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

All the time i was locked up.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I waited trembling.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

This is soul school!.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She was in good health!

Would this be the day?

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He knew the spot.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But ive been too sick for many years..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I couldn’t, believe it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I said to her

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She married twice! .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I don,t even have a pension.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Put me off passion for life!!

I could never make a relationship work though!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Ive learnt so much.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I was seconnd youngest,

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She loved him until the end.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My life is so biszare .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

What did i know ?

Comes on , in middle age.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

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When she asked me how she looked .

She found it foreign!.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Especially a lifetime of it.

I never cut or harmed myself..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I have no regrets .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

It was going to be , some day.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Why did i forgive my father ?

So, i spoilt her more .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

So whats the point in blame.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She wouldn,t have been !

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I write beautiful poetry .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Im still living with it.

I was very sick at this time too.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I think the readers, may guess!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My family never makes their pension either.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I was scared of men, in general

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He resisted the act ,that day.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.